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As a young adult, I started to read every opportunity I had. Then my love of words was found, allowing me to create a world in which I could express myself comfortably.

As a child and into adulthood the meaning of unrequired love was lost to me. It was around the age of twelve I started to gain weight, and as a young girl of size, trying to keep some semblance of positive image was an uphill battle. As I grew older and the pounds followed, the view of my body image changed dramatically and I wasn’t capable of fighting the outer forces or the effects from it. It was the start of feeling isolated and unsure as an introverted child growing up and into most of my teen years.

As I explored the world around me, I unknowingly learned how to listen to my own voice to hear the messages I tell myself. In time, it showed me my innate trust in something bigger than society’s image of body that is distorted and unaccepting of the individual differences and helped me see the image of my body is one of kindness, caring, and love. I now believe I have always reflexively felt a connection to my innate love for myself, helping me to understand and value the real me, and change my physical image.

Today love means so many things to me, and is felt in defining ways that have helped shape me into the author I am today. I now have the pleasure of embracing the feelings of joy and excitement that come from being a writer and romance novelist. It’s possible because I evaluate myself and my growth with honesty in hopes of being capable of writing well-meaning, true-to-life love stories. Love stories about large-size women who are seen for their unique beauty and are worthy to be the heroine who gets the man of her dreams.

Saundra MacKay

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